Khawatir

The Example Is Not the Problem

The gap between us and the Awliyāʾ is not what we have been telling ourselves it is.

17 hrs ago • Abdul-Malik Merchant

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Arbitrating Justice

When Legality Is Not Enough

May 1 • Abdul-Malik Merchant

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April 2026

Waiting Is Not Tawakkul

Why So Many Muslim Men Want Marriage and Won’t Move Toward It

Apr 26 • Abdul-Malik Merchant

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The Product We Became

What we optimized for and what it cost

Apr 11 • Abdul-Malik Merchant

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March 2026

Someone Else Should Do This

A letter to a mentee paralyzed by how much he wanted the work to be good

Mar 31 • Abdul-Malik Merchant

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I'm Glad It's Ending

A final Ramadan reflection on exhaustion, honest shortfall, and the mercy of what the month left behind.

Mar 19 • Abdul-Malik Merchant

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From Where I Never Expected

The door was never locked — a Ramadan reflection on rizq and the thing I was afraid to build.

Mar 7 • Abdul-Malik Merchant

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February 2026

Ramadan, where's the Barakah?

I am tired in a way that has nothing to do with food.

Feb 26 • Abdul-Malik Merchant

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Ruminations: Welcoming Ramadan Without Excitement

Notes on guarded hearts, the poverty of correctness alone, and seeking a tradition where love is not a rare visitor

Feb 19 • Abdul-Malik Merchant

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Scaffolding, Not Salvation

On formation without villages: what we ask from structure, and what it cannot give.

Feb 12 • Abdul-Malik Merchant

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Proximity ≠ Piety

On access as a currency—and the heart’s habit of ranking without admitting it.

Feb 5 • Abdul-Malik Merchant

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January 2026

"It's not my money"

Where provision passes through our hands, and the heart is asked to remember its place.

Jan 29 • Abdul-Malik Merchant

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