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The Product We Became

What we optimized for and what it cost

2 hrs ago • Abdul-Malik Merchant

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March 2026

Someone Else Should Do This

A letter to a mentee paralyzed by how much he wanted the work to be good

Mar 31 • Abdul-Malik Merchant

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I'm Glad It's Ending

A final Ramadan reflection on exhaustion, honest shortfall, and the mercy of what the month left behind.

Mar 19 • Abdul-Malik Merchant

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From Where I Never Expected

The door was never locked — a Ramadan reflection on rizq and the thing I was afraid to build.

Mar 7 • Abdul-Malik Merchant

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February 2026

Ramadan, where's the Barakah?

I am tired in a way that has nothing to do with food.

Feb 26 • Abdul-Malik Merchant

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Ruminations: Welcoming Ramadan Without Excitement

Notes on guarded hearts, the poverty of correctness alone, and seeking a tradition where love is not a rare visitor

Feb 19 • Abdul-Malik Merchant

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Scaffolding, Not Salvation

On formation without villages: what we ask from structure, and what it cannot give.

Feb 12 • Abdul-Malik Merchant

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Proximity ≠ Piety

On access as a currency—and the heart’s habit of ranking without admitting it.

Feb 5 • Abdul-Malik Merchant

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January 2026

"It's not my money"

Where provision passes through our hands, and the heart is asked to remember its place.

Jan 29 • Abdul-Malik Merchant

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When Mountains Disappear

A reflection on the passing of Dr. Yaqub Mirza, quiet stabilizers, and the call to become mountains who hold the Ummah steady after loss.

Jan 21 • Abdul-Malik Merchant

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November 2025

Ruminations: Father-Son Conversations

The unseen inheritance we give our children: courage, honesty, and the strength to stay gentle.

Nov 15, 2025 • Abdul-Malik Merchant

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October 2025

When Companionship Became a Community – Part 2

From first principles to floor plans: practicing suhba (companionship) here and now.

Oct 30, 2025 • Abdul-Malik Merchant

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